Summer means sharing them...

Every summer we take our kids to Ohio

to visit their grandparents

and their cousins.
They are each others secret keepers,
biggest fans, mischief makers,
best friends.

This year is a little different because 

since I am not teaching,

 I don't have the summer off. 

So in the past I got to stay and 

be with them,

this year Nate and I dropped them off and came home

to go back to work.

Hmmm,

the word Struggling

 does not even begin to

describe this feeling, this ache.

We left Ohio and our 3 Wishes yesterday

and my anxiety level is...

well lets just say

I could use an IV filled with Valium

hooked to my arm.

 I know they will have a blast, I know they 

will be safe.

The plain truth is that

I am their Mama and

I  miss them.
 
 My wishes have grown and changed so

much already this year,
 I don't want to miss anything.

But,

this is all part of mothering isn't it?

Learning to let go, to let them grow.
To encourage them to step outside their comfort zone 
and try new things.
Sometimes Mama's need to 
do the same. 

My children are blessed with Grandparents that love them
as much as I do.
I couldn't ask for better role models.
These are memory makin' times for cousins,
Aunts, Uncles and old friends.

I have decided to use this time to really clear out the clutter,

to spend time writing,

and doing all those things 

that

normally,

I would not have time for.

I pray that my children are so very thankful 

for this time with family...

because time and family are

so very precious.

This is their time, 

to be kids, to be free, 

to be with family.

Have a lovely Tuesday friends!